Ok, you might think I’m nuts. How the heck can a cancer diagnosis be a blessing? All the pain and suffering that we will or have gone through, and now this?
Well let’s take it back (and yes, I might get a little religious here) but there are many sayings that relate to good that comes from bad. Sayings like “There’s always a rainbow after the rain”, or “nothing worth getting is easy”, or “you need to fight for what you want”, and so on.
I was shopping at Target one day when I was approached by a lady I had never met before. She complimented me on my nails, which I thougth was odd since they were just basic nails with regular nail polish. We bgean chatting when I told her I use social media. She said, “well, if you have a youtube channel, you must have one hell of a story!” And I thought, well I do! And she responded, “well I guess you’re back at school then!”
The thought that after any awful thing happens, something beautiful can be created, thought of, or learned from is what I gathered after all this experience. What am I learning from this experience? And simply this, the lessons learned, are the greatest gift God has given me.
I have been able to really soul search and learn they type and amount of strength and perservereance I have. Which is a lot! I can really focus on matters at hand and keep it going. I am not very good at enduring pain and this is my biggest flaw. Pain get’s me sad and/or depressed and it’s a real downer. But not impossible to fix. I take immediate action to stop or avoid pain which has made me the greatest advocate for myself. It has taought it’s okay to say “NO!” and okay to delegate things. Most importantly, it’s ok to let go of expectations.
I have learned that I have people supporting me I didn’t even know ever thought of me! I was so shocked when so many people called, texted, or came over my house for support. So many friends have provided me with meals, gift cards, flowers, or quality time. I have truly learned the meaning of friendship. On that note, I have also out-grown friends who just were not meant to be part of my new path.
I learned what friends are capable of when soomeone is in need and therefore has made me a much better friend overall! I would love to give back to everyone I know that feeling that they have given me. The feeling of acceptance, of no judgement, of love, of pure .
I have learned that truly people of many ways to show love and have grown to accept that and appreciate. Poeple can show love by just calling, texting, cooking, or simply spending their day with you.